Today, January 11, 2015 marks 3 years since my son, Cooper had his sternum reopened to clean out an infection that developed in his chest after open heart surgery two weeks earlier. When we spoke to the doctors after surgery, all they could tell us was that they had gotten all of the infection. However, they were unable to give us the 100% assurance that he would fully recover and be okay. My son was so sick and it was an incredibly scary road to walk down. God did heal Cooper and if you were to watch him today, you would never know that he had once been so sick. I am so thankful for the little boy God has given me in Cooper. My prayer is that Cooper's life honors God. I pray the Lord does great and mighty things through him! During that time three years ago, the Lord used many people in our lives to pray for Cooper and to pray for us and I am grateful for and indebted to those individuals. I hope you enjoy a few of my thoughts from three years ago.
"For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength." 1 Corinthians 1:25
[REPOST from January 17, 2012]
I wish I could say that prayer has always been a consistent and active discipline in my life. Unfortunately, the discipline of prayer has probably been one of the most difficult things in my walk with the Lord. The pendulum has swung from my feeling adequate to inadequate, heard to unheard, purposeful to selfish, checking a to-do list to feeling energized and apathy to desire. As a mom of young children, it is hard to find much time to sit and have a long, meaningful, quiet and uninterrupted prayer time or time to journal my prayers (a practice I highly recommend). As a result, I often find myself doing fly-by prayers as I go through my day. I like this kind of continual prayer, but I miss times of quiet focused prayer.
This week I again found it difficult to pray but for an entirely different reason. I simply could not find the words. My prayers this week have been raw and from the core, "God, please heal my baby, you have to heal my baby." I'm certain I have repeated these words thousands upon thousands of times as I have sat with Cooper and laid over his body begging for his life. Occasionally, I've recalled Romans 8:26, "In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." I have begged the Holy Spirit to intercede for me because I was unable.
It has been an extremely humbling experience to be in the place where my child is fighting for his life, and I am completely unable to find the words to beg and plead for the Lord to heal him and restore him to health. But our God is incredibly faithful, and He has surrounded my family with righteous men and women who have gone before us and pleaded for Cooper's life and health. My friends' prayers surrounding Cooper include,
"I pray that you would give doctors, nurses and staff all the knowledge and wisdom and guidance they need to make the best decisions for his care. Give Andy and Amanda supernatural rest . . . Lord, I beg you to wipe all infection in Cooper's body and heal him completely from the inside out."
Another friend prayed these words,
"Father, he is completely dependent upon you. He has been since the day he was conceived. It is true for each of us, but tonight we stand here completely aware that You sustain life. . . Thank you that you are not just our Creator, but You call Yourself our Physician and our Healer. I proclaim Your names over Cooper . . . Father, you move faster than any infection ever thought about moving."
James 5:16 says, "Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." I wish I could post all the prayers that have been emailed and texted to me over the past week. I wish I could share how my friends had the perfect words when I had none. I wish I could tell you of the couple who fasted the day of Cooper's surgery. These men and women stood in the gap for me, they held up our weary arms and the prayers of these righteous ones have been powerful and effective! Cooper's body is healing! I will never have the words to thank everyone who has prayed so diligently for Cooper and it is likely I will never be able to return the favor to most of these friends. My hope is that I have learned how powerful intercessory prayer is and that I will "hit my knees" for others who are facing some of their darkest and scariest hours. I pray I have the privilege of standing in the gap for others and holding up their weary arms when they are unable to do it for themselves.